…..at last, the consequence of your past decisions come speeding at you like an uncontrollable force with the speed and likeness of your final semester and that dreaded 100 page thesis English course.
What were you thinking?
You didn’t mean to…..cause any pain.
Painfully, trying to understand how to get rid of the guilt, pain, hurt…..and, so, you tried to dance it away, cry it away, work it away, talk it away, deny it away but eventually ended up losing yourself this way.
This as an interlude to healing, as we often talk about how we plan to outgrow people and the things around us, and yet there’s is so much to be said about outgrowing self. Outgrowing your work, your mistakes, your way of being. Letting go of what was and making space for what will be. Shedding the old and allowing space for the new.
There is absolutely NOTHING wrong in making mistakes as long as you can forgive yourself, make the necessary steps to correct/never do such again, understand why you made the mistake, to begin with, and making a conscious effort to be better.
Stop trying to dance it away. Embrace, understand it, learn from it and grow. To all those in pain pull from it an opportunity to be reborn.
What doesn’t kill you certainly makes you stronger, right?
sorry if my thoughts seem to be all over the place…starting to get back into writing and I’m working on being more concise. I hope you understood my message.